You think you got the best of me

Under comments:

shammy900, 1 month ago
Hands up if you still jamming this song in 2016

Selin1, 7 hours ago
me trying to calm myself down when i fail

Neoseyg, 1 month ago
What does not kill makes you wish it did

I’m writing a novel, 4 days ago
so eat as much chocolate as you want


From Urban Dictionary:


1) to cause friction during intense situations
2) an unnecessary contribution of verbal, physical, and/or emotional aggression

Musical Reference – Everlast, “What It’s Like”:
“…And then she heads for the clinic and she gets some static walkin’ through the doors,
They call her a killer, and they call her a sinner, and they call her a whore…”

God forbid, you ever had to walk a mile in her shoes
‘Cause then you really might know what it’s like to sing the blues

It’s not chocolate mousse

Let me introduce you to chocolate mousse cake (from Pelican’s Restaurant).

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Hello there, love of my life.


Yes, I took a couple of bites before taking the photos. But you can’t take more than a couple of bites before your teeth start to ache (and your eyes start to roll back in your head) from the sweetness. So, six or seven dirty spoons later, I zapped my last couple of bites in the microwave. (Yes, I licked the bowl.) Sadly, the interlude with my lover was short (but extremely sweet). I’ll never forget you, my dear.


Last week, I made peanut butter brownies with chocolate chips.


Sometimes I use too many chocolate chips, and other times, I don’t use enough. This was a case of the latter.

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Yes, they were good, but…

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…it’s not chocolate mousse.

As much as I love my bud, it’s not really a painkiller. Maybe it’s because I haven’t been able to find bud strong enough for my pain levels in a very long time, but I’m beginning to think that I won’t be able to manage my pain with just bud, aspirin, and chocolate.

This is a very disappointing realization for me, and I’m not happy about it. What’s even worse is that I don’t have any other options.

Are Trump and Clinton in a PDMP database?

I’m not sure pain patients understand the rights they’ve lost because of Prescription Drug Monitoring Programs (PDMPs). They’ve been sold as a tool to fight the opioid overdose “epidemic,” and patients appear to have swallowed this lie.

The truth is that PDMPs have had little (if any) effect. Since they’ve been put in place, the death rates keep rising, and states have begun to try different (and more damaging) ways to fight the opioid war.

Back in 2013, New York’s PDMP was praised:

How New York’s Getting More Out of Its Drug Monitoring Program

This epidemic has spurred nearly every state to create a Prescription Drug Monitoring Program (PDMP). In 2001, just 16 states had established a PDMP to address the problem of prescription drug abuse. Today, a PDMP exists in 49 of the 50 states.

Despite the programs’ pervasive presence, it’s not clear if they work. For example, even a 2012 report out of Brandeis University’s Prescription Drug Monitoring Program Center of Excellence is itself conflicted…

On the other coast, New York state recently revamped its PDMP and upgraded its IT capabilities with a new program it calls I-STOP, short for the Internet System for Tracking Over-Prescribing Act.

New York has made prescription drug data available to physicians since 2010, “but the old system was underutilized,” according to Terence O’Leary, director of the Bureau of Narcotic Enforcement for the New York State Department of Health (DOH).

Can you see how law enforcement has invaded state departments of health?

“In fairness to the practitioners, it wasn’t the most user-friendly system.” But the state now requires the DOH to update the program to make additional data available and to get it in the right hands more efficiently.

“It’s much quicker in returning data,” O’Leary says. “We’ve reduced the number of clicks needed to get to the data.” The report is more complete, he says, and includes all of the controlled substances prescribed by each doctor… The law also allows more people, like properly trained front-office staff, to access the system… Another new feature of New York’s PDMP is that pharmacists now have access to the data as well… 

It’s now 3 years later, so how is New York doing?

(June 9, 2016) ALBANY — Heroin and opioid-related deaths in New York are at a record high, with overdose deaths in the state rising faster over the past decade than in nearly all other states, a new report released Thursday found…

“It’s important to raise awareness because there are things people can do in their own homes, in their own families to really make a difference – such as when they’re offered a prescription for a narcotic pain medication, they can say no,” Burstein said…

Oh no, we’re back to “Just say no.” Nancy Reagan would be so proud.

SALT LAKE CITY — The Drug Enforcement Administration is asking a federal judge to enforce subpoenas served on Utah’s Department of Commerce seeking access to the state’s prescription drug database…

Access to the controlled substance database recently required a warrant after state lawmakers changed the rules. It followed an incident where Unified Fire Authority firefighters found their records accessed by police looking into missing medications…

If I was into conspiracy theories, I could come up with hundreds of different ways that the information in the PDMPs could be used against innocent patients…

I wonder if Donald Trump and Hillary Clinton are in one of the PDMP databases? In most states, it wouldn’t be too hard for someone to access this information and leak it to the press. It sure would be interesting to see a list of all the drugs these candidates have taken and are taking now.

I read an internet rumor about Trump having suffered through a botched surgical procedure on his scalp, one that was apparently very painful. I say the dude’s on Vicodin.

“I can find no scientific evidence to support this statement.”

I’m tired of refuting all the lies published by the New York Times. And I have to say that the once-revered profession of journalism has certainly fallen on very hard times.

Under comments:

John, Burlington, VT, June 8, 2016
“Older adults don’t metabolize drugs as well as a 30- or 50-year old, so the medication stays in a person’s system longer,” Dr. Reid said.

I can find no scientific evidence to support this statement.

David X, new haven, ct, June 6, 2016
As an older person who was totally healthy until a cardiologist pushed a statin drug on me, this article is doubly infuriating. At age 69, I carried 30 opioid pills to Nepal, trekking in the mountains, just in case of injury. I returned with all 30 pills.

At age 70, after 7 months on low-dose statin, I was in constant pain and couldn’t walk around the block. Now I do need pain relief. Ironic? Maybe, but not uncommon.

1/4 of Americans over 40 are on statins. 1/4 of this number (about 8 million Americans) complain of muscle pain.

No one knows about causality, since there would be no profit from knowing, but the growth in statin use exactly parallels the growth in opioid use. No one seems to know or want to know if those on statins take more opioids than the general population.

There are lots of medications that American doctors need to prescribe less, statins at the top of the list.

catrunning, pasadena, ca, June 7, 2016
Wow – this is real sadism, intentional or not, on the part of the government and medical providers masquerading as “preventative medicine”. Do those bright minds who are denying elderly pain patients a modicum of relief really believe that they are stopping all those recreational drug users in their tracks? Are they refusing to acknowledge that the recreational people have already transitioned to heroin, which is actually considerably cheaper and much easier to acquire than pills anyway.

If I sound bitter, it is because I just lost a good friend to suicide due to untreated pain. She could no longer stand the agony from a rare auto immune, degenerative disease that has no cure nor remission. After she was cut off opiates by her pain clinic because they had no CDC or whatever agency published guidelines for prescribing them in connection with her very rare disease, her life was reduced to just enduring endless agony. I even offered to get her heroin to try, but she wouldn’t let me take the risk. In retrospect, I wished I had forced the issue.