With the progress in treatments, cancer doesn’t seem to be as worrisome in my old age as the threat of Alzheimer’s. (Not that I could afford to pay for cancer treatments.)
I was just sitting here wondering how awful it would be to lose my memory — my identity. (Hey, that rhymes.) For a minute or two, I thought my fear of Alzheimer’s was stronger than my fear of increased pain…
Then I thought, what would happen to my pain levels if I begin to suffer from dementia? If I forget who I am, can I also forget 30 years of pain? If I begin to lose my memory as I get older, will my pain memories also disappear? Sounds too good to be true, right?
I can imagine losing sense of myself and awakening in a body suffering from constant pain. I’d be like, I don’t care who I am, all I want to know is why the fuck am I in so much pain?
And then Alzheimer’s can kinda be like cancer — something for me to look forward to. When I get cancer, I get all the pain medications I want. And if I get Alzheimer’s, maybe, just maybe, I won’t care about the constant pain anymore.
I know, sad and morbid, but true.
And then I wondered, could LSD or Ecstasy help Alzheimer’s patients? I don’t have to wonder if cannabis can treat Alzheimer’s — I already know the answer to that. (Free the Weed.)