Wed, Jun 10, 2015 9:30 am
From: Joanna G Katzman
Re: An alternative to suicide?
I am happy to get you an appointment with one of our UNM Pain Center providers if you’d like at this time. I did want to let you know that we don’t sign off on medical cannibis in our clinic.
Please provide me with your date of birth and best contact number so that our UNM Pain Center can call you for an appointment. I am copying our charge nurse Jill Norris, RN, so she can have the information ready to go. Also, please plan to bring in your medical records and have any sent before the appointment as well.
Thank you so much,
Joanna G Katzman
Do you ever feel like you’re talking to empty air? Or that doctors just don’t listen? I’m not sure how I could have been more plain, especially about not having a phone. Or about being financially bereft. How much would it cost to copy and send my medical records (including MRIs) by courier to UNM?
I said I couldn’t afford the medical cannabis program, but it’s interesting to know that her clinic refuses to certify for the program. What kind of pain clinic would refuse access to cannabis for its patients? Sounds pretty cruel to me. If the clinic won’t even certify for cannabis, why would I think they would be willing to prescribe anything that might help me?
And I mentioned how complex my case was, so why would I want to see any other doctor except this purported expert, Dr. Katzman? She doesn’t know that I’ve seen pain specialists with more experience than she will ever have, or that I traveled from Texas to California to see the top specialist in her field. So actually, even seeing her would be a step down. No, she wants to pawn me off on one of her lackeys.
Does she mention if they take Medicare or not? No. Does she mention how much an appointment would cost? No. Does she mention how long it would take before I could see a doctor? No. Did I think mentioning suicide would give her an idea that we’re talking about a rather urgent problem? Is unmanageable intractable pain considered urgent? No. After all, pain doesn’t kill, right? Maybe I should have mentioned some of the other symptoms (besides suicidal ideation) that I’ve been experiencing from the constant, unrelieved, high-level pain, like heart palpitations. Would that have made a difference? No.
Does she even comprehend why I’ve given up on the medical industry? Apparently not.
Just imagine, if you will, how many times in 30 years I’ve paid for my medical records to be “evaluated” by a doctor. Just for the Medical Cannabis Program, I paid about $300 for two different doctors to review my records and certify my chronic pain condition. But that was only good for one year, which is one of the reasons I couldn’t afford to renew.
Does she understand that I’m not interested in any invasive treatments? That paying a doctor to prescribe acupuncture, massage, or mindfulness is a useless waste of my time and what little money I have? Will this doctor agree to prescribe the medications that help me or will he or she try to give me a prescription for antidepressants or any other drugs used off-label for treating chronic pain?
I really don’t know how to respond to her email. It’s obvious to me that she’s not interested in helping me and is just going through the motions so she won’t look bad or feel guilty.
How does one respond to empty air?