“Time sneaks up on you like a windshield on a bug.” John Lithgow

“I grew up in New Mexico, and the older I get, I have less need for contemporary culture and big cities and all the stuff we are bombarded with. I am happier at my ranch in the middle of nowhere watching a bug carry leaves across the grass, listening to silence, riding my horse, and being in open space.”  Tom Ford

(Photo taken yesterday.)

Scientists Explain Why We Can’t Resist Puppy Dog Eyes


Oxytocin, or the love hormone, helps reinforce the bond between a parent and a child. And now, researchers working with man’s best friend reveal that dogs have tapped into—or hijacked, some might say—this same instinctual bonding mechanism. Gazing into those sweet puppy dog eyes increases our oxytocin levels, and theirs too. The findings, published in Science this week, suggest that this “oxytocin-gaze” may have been acquired during the domestication of dogs from wolves…


New research is suggesting that oxytocin plays a crucial part in enabling us to not just forge and strengthen our social relations, but in helping us to stave off a number of psychological and physiological problems as well. But more conceptually, oxytocin is proving to be a crucial ingredient to what makes us human. Here are ten reasons why oxytocin is simply the most incredible molecule on the planet:

One of the neat things about oxytocin is that you can get your fix anywhere and at any time. All you need to do is simply hug someone or shake their hand. The simple act of bodily contact will cause your brain to release low levels of oxytocin — both in yourself and in the person you’re touching. It’s a near-instantaneous way to establish trust. And the good news is that the effect lingers afterward. There’s even evidence that simply gazing at someone will do the trick — or even just thinking about them. And you shouldn’t feel limited by the human species; it also helps to hug and play with your pets. And for those who can’t produce enough oxytocin on their own, or who feel they could use a boost, the molecule can be easily synthesized and administered as a drug…

Amazingly, oxytocin can also be used to heal wounds (through its anti-inflammatory properties). Studies have also shown that a rise in oxytocin levels can relieve pain — everything from headaches, cramps and overall body aches. Now, that being said, the trick is to get some oxytocin action while you’re in pain — which is not so easy. This is where synthetics can certainly help. Alternately, if you find yourself in physical discomfort, you could always ask your partner for a roll in the hay. So guys, be sure to use this crucial information the next time your significant other declines your advances and tells you she has a headache…

4. Reduces social fears…

7. An antidepressant…

8. Stress relief…

Under comments:

Kronicide:  “Now, it should be noted, however, that, while oxytocin increases in-group trust, it produces the opposite feeling for those in the out-group…”

Wait, what? It makes us hate strangers? This makes me curious about what other not-so-awesome effects it has.

Sleep Ambivalence, Part 2

I first discussed suffering from Sleep Ambivalence here:


I’m sure there’s a lot more to my problems of not being able to fall and stay asleep than I discussed in that post, and for this post, I’ll talk about one more.

I’ve had numerous MRIs, listed here:


My pain doctor ordered the last ones I had taken, and although I received a report with each MRI indicating what was found, I had to see another specialist to discuss my options for treatment.  ($$$$$$$)  For my cervical spine MRIs, I saw two different neurologists.

The first specialist only talked about the option of surgery, which would include fusing together the vertebrae in my neck.  (Maybe this guy was a neurosurgeon, not a neurologist — I’ve seen so many doctors, I just can’t remember.)  Since I already have a limited range of motion in my neck, that didn’t sound like a good idea to me.  After giving me the details of this kind of surgery (but none of the risks or likely outcomes), he asked me when I wanted to schedule the procedure. He looked at his appointment book and said he could do it within the next couple of days…

And I thought I needed a second opinion.

The second specialist I saw was recommended to me by an attorney I used to work for, and I don’t think the doctor would have seen me without this connection.  This doctor actually looked at my MRI films and read the reports.  He asked me if I had numbness in my hands and feet, and I said it was intermittent, but not constant.  So he said that he would not recommend surgery at this point, but when the numbness became constant, to come back and see him.

It was about 3 or 4 years ago when I had an episode of constant numbness in my left arm.  I woke up one day and was unable to move it.  After a few days, the feeling in my arm started to come back, but it took a couple of weeks for it to fully return. I assume this was due to my degenerative disk disease and also spinal stenosis, which back in 2009, was listed as “mild.”

No, I didn’t see a doctor during or after this episode, because all they can do for it is surgery. And since my TMJ surgery just made my pain worse, and surgery is a major trauma on the body (including on the neurons that produce pain), I’m not interested in being cut on again.

While the numbness in my hands and feet have increased as the years go by, it is still not constant. However, I can’t stay in one position for very long or the tingling and numbness gets worse.

This is another reason why I have trouble falling asleep — not only do I have to find a position that doesn’t cause this numbness to get worse, but I also have the fear that I’ll move into a position while I’m asleep that will result in the loss of feeling in one of my extremities.  That I’ll wake up and not be able to move an arm or a leg.

And to top it all off, this numbness doesn’t decrease the pain, as you might think, since most of my pain is in my head.  But also, the tingly feeling of numbness is quite uncomfortable and often painful, which is the symptom doctors call neuropathy (which just means nerve pain).  When I had access to medical cannabis, the neuropathy wasn’t as bad, and the episodes didn’t last as long.

Oddly enough, I also have spots of intermittent tingling in my head.  I don’t know if my head could ever become completely numb, like my arm did, but I don’t think so.  However, if that happens, maybe then the pain will finally decrease.  (Just wishful thinking on my part.)

As always, thanks for reading my ramblings. 🙂

Brain-Damaged Victims of Swine Flu Vaccine Win $63 Million Lawsuit



Sorry dear Americans, your government, run by corporations, does not allow you to sue Big Pharma for compensation…

GlaxoSmithKline (GSK) is in the news again making headlines after having to settle another major lawsuit bringing the latest total to over $9.1 billion since 2003. This time, it is due to GSK’s product Pandemrix, which was the swine flu vaccine forced upon the public during the pandemic of 2009 (which is argued by some to have been fake)…

Lost And Never Found: An Alcoholic’s Unknown Story


“Did you hear about the rose that grew from a crack in the concrete? Proving nature’s laws wrong, it learned to walk without having feet. Funny, it seems to by keeping it’s dreams; it learned to breathe fresh air. Long live the rose that grew from concrete when no one else even cared. You see you wouldn’t ask why the rose that grew from the concrete had damaged petals. On the contrary, we would all celebrate its tenacity. We would all love it’s will to reach the sun. Well, we are the rose – this is the concrete – and these are my damaged petals.”

-Tupac Shakur

This is the first real case, my first time of seeing beyond someone’s mask, this stuck with me and changed my life…

Where and who was the father? Well he was a doctor actually, a hero to the community. Behind closed doors he hit and abused this drunk lady. One time he had drug her across the room with a belt while she was pregnant and she had a miscarriage. The children saw this type of abuse daily…

Now I want to go back to this drunken lady. What you will NOT read in her chart is that when she was 7 years old, she was babysitting her 5 year old brother. He was run over by a truck and killed…  So she is a killer, irresponsible, and a bad person. That is in her head. She believes this to be true…

When Is a Pain Doctor a Drug Pusher? (2007)



Ronald McIver is a prisoner in a medium-security federal compound in Butner, N.C. He is 63 years old, of medium height and overweight, with a white Santa Claus beard, white hair and a calm, direct and intelligent manner. He is serving 30 years for drug trafficking, and so will likely live there the rest of his life…

Contrary to the old saw, pain kills. A body in pain produces high levels of hormones that cause stress to the heart and lungs. Pain can cause blood pressure to spike, leading to heart attacks and strokes. Pain can also consume so much of the body’s energy that the immune system degrades. Severe chronic pain sometimes leads to suicide…

Even a predisposition to addiction, however, doesn’t mean a patient will become addicted to opioids. Vast numbers do not…

For individuals who are properly titrated and monitored, there is no ceiling on opioid dosage. In this sense, high-dose prescription opioids can be safer than taking high doses of aspirin, Tylenol or Advil, which cause organ damage in high doses, regardless of how those doses are administered. (Every year, an estimated 5,000 to 6,000 Americans die from gastrointestinal bleeding associated with drugs like ibuprofen or aspirin, according to a paper published in The American Journal of Gastroenterology.) …

According to the pharmaceutical research company IMS Health, prescriptions for opioids have risen over the past few years. They are used now more than ever before. Yet study after study has concluded that pain is still radically undertreated. The Stanford University Medical Center survey found that only 50 percent of chronic-pain sufferers who had spoken to a doctor about their pain got sufficient relief. According to the American Pain Society, an advocacy group, fewer than half of cancer patients in pain get adequate pain relief…

In addition to medical considerations real or imagined, there is another deterrent to opioid use: fear. According to the D.E.A., 71 doctors were arrested last year for crimes related to “diversion” — the leakage of prescription medicine into illegal drug markets. The D.E.A. also opened 735 investigations of doctors, and an investigation alone can be enough to put a doctor out of business, as doctors can lose their licenses and practices and have their homes, offices and cars seized even if no federal criminal charges are ever filed…

Pain patients attacking each other


Comment found in left sidebar:

Ellie Goudie
Yesterday at 3:14pm
There will always be those who abuse no matter what we are talking about. But then there are those that are in real NEED that should not be punished.

This is what I was talking about yesterday, pain patients attacking each other.  ALL patients are in real NEED, and those who abuse their medications are usually patients who’s pain is mistreated, misdiagnosed, or under-treated.  Put the blame where it belongs, on the DEA.


Thinking of you, Erin Grossman Vu


Ms. Erin Grossman Vu, a legal resident of Kentucky who has been disabled for some years with congenital heart disease, relocated on 10-5-2013 to Michigan where she was living with relatives when she was accepted into a Medical Marijuana Program…

In December she returned to Kentucky and re-established her citizenship here. She had been referred to a Cardiologist in Lexington Kentucky for follow up care. However, after the Lexington Cardiologist received her records he refused to treat her and she has yet to be evaluated by him…

At this time it seems that Ms. Grossman Vu is a seriously ill Heart Patient without a Doctor to care for her. The question remains whether or not this is due to the Medical Marijuana designation she received in Michigan, or the fact that the “leadless pacemaker’s” is in experimental status…


Ms. Erin Grossman Vu, a popular activist for medical marijuana in Kentucky passed from this life on April 10th, 2015…

(Photo taken 4/18/2015.)

Obama fully supports MMJ in Weed 3?


In a CNN special to be aired on Sunday, not only will President Barack Obama state his full support of medical marijuana, he’ll also advocate for alternative models of drug abuse treatment which don’t involve incarceration. The television special, called “Weed 3,” features CNN’s chief medical correspondent Sanjay Gupta, a neurosurgeon who came to support medical marijuana after reviewing the evidence. This time around, he’ll be delving into the politics of medical marijuana research and interviewing President Barack Obama, according to an email obtained by The Daily Caller News Foundation.

Mentally Ill in a High-Stakes Job



But it’s not just in aviation where mental-health treatment is a concern.

Consider also doctors, dentists, lawyers. They have trained for years, passed tough exams, been licensed and deemed fit by a stringent set of regulations; they’re needed at their best. Yet many of these high-responsibility, high-risk career fields have high rates of suicide. That means many of these highly trained workers could be showing up at work in a compromised condition.

Seeking help for depression, anxiety, or another mental condition can be difficult for anyone. People may be embarrassed to discuss their symptoms, they might not know what kind of healthcare provider to see, or they might hope the problem will go away on its own. But in some fields, visiting a therapist for a diagnosis or starting medications can endanger the licensing and career someone has often worked a decade or more to achieve…

According to the National Occupational Mortality Surveillance Report from the CDC, which studied nearly 500 different professions, physicians have one of the highest rates of suicide in the U.S., coming in at 16th. Why, in a field designed to heal, are so many people suffering? …

In a follow-up survey to further examine the issue, to which 35 boards responded, 13 stated that any report of mental illness is sufficient for imposing consequences, such as revocation or restriction of license, probation, or requiring completion of a treatment regimen…

On a web forum for medical students, one member who chose the name “Broken Doctor” for a screen name offered his or her experience:

Your fears about professional stigma and discrimination from medical licensing boards are well-founded.

I have been treated for depression for many years. When my state medical board found out (I reported it myself after taking a brief medical leave of absence), they chose to publicly discipline me simply for getting sick. In my case, there have never been any allegations of misconduct, incompetence, or practicing while impaired. Overall, this has been the most humiliating experience of my life. The professional damage is staggering and irreversible. […] So, my advice to you would be to NEVER EVER EVER admit to your licensing board anything that could even remotely be considered mental illness. Until the professional stigma of mental illness is squarely addressed by organized medicine, your honesty will only get you in trouble.

In 2011, the Federation of State Medical Boards, a non-profit group which represents 70 U.S. medical and osteopathic boards, released an extensive Policy on Physician Impairment covering physical and mental impairment, as well as substance abuse. It clarifies definitions, and serves to establish best practices in helping physicians seek treatment through the Physician’s Health Program structure, established in the 1970s to assist addicted doctors, now expanded to cover psychiatric care for all healthcare professionals, including dentists and pharmacists…

Well, this article is very disappointing, considering it doesn’t include any of the issues discussed here: